My biggest mistake. I let her go when she said she was leaving.
I know I haven’t told you any of this before but I thought you deserved to know.
You’re the only person that makes me want to wake up in the morning and the last person I want to talk to or think about before I fall asleep at night. Our world is crazy. But put aside all the heartaches, heartbreaks, headaches, and you’re still you. The one who when I think about I think that things aren’t so bad. You make me have hope for the rest of the world. I have so many other things to worry about besides not having you, but if I did have you, the others would be so much more beatable. You make me want to be the best person I could be. You've made the journey towards becoming the person I dream about being look so much shorter. Don’t ever let me forget it.
It’s gotten to the point where today I thought about what I would do if I ever were diagnosed with a terminal disease. First I thought of the lists of apologies I owe to you and too many other people. It’s sad it would take that much. That’s the biggest kick in the ass I could think of and probably the only efficient one. That makes me want to speak up even more. I’ll be on my deathbed and they’ll what my favorite part was. I’ll tell them it was you. A year and a half ago I made a decision that I wasn't going to need anybody anymore. I wasted all the time from then on until now, that way. And I know I'm late and I know I don't deserve it, but I need you. I love you. I haven’t lived a single day without you. Without thoughts of you. You are my love, life, lungs…and we all know I can’t live without those.
I can see myself, 60 years from now in a rocking chair on the front porch of a house I almost recognize, telling my grandchildren about the first day of my life. “I was seven years old when I met the girl who made my life the best it could ever be. When you love someone with all of your heart, it never disappears. Remember that.”
letyourheartguideyou.
itwhisperssolistencarefully.
You’re the only person that makes me want to wake up in the morning and the last person I want to talk to or think about before I fall asleep at night. Our world is crazy. But put aside all the heartaches, heartbreaks, headaches, and you’re still you. The one who when I think about I think that things aren’t so bad. You make me have hope for the rest of the world. I have so many other things to worry about besides not having you, but if I did have you, the others would be so much more beatable. You make me want to be the best person I could be. You've made the journey towards becoming the person I dream about being look so much shorter. Don’t ever let me forget it.
It’s gotten to the point where today I thought about what I would do if I ever were diagnosed with a terminal disease. First I thought of the lists of apologies I owe to you and too many other people. It’s sad it would take that much. That’s the biggest kick in the ass I could think of and probably the only efficient one. That makes me want to speak up even more. I’ll be on my deathbed and they’ll what my favorite part was. I’ll tell them it was you. A year and a half ago I made a decision that I wasn't going to need anybody anymore. I wasted all the time from then on until now, that way. And I know I'm late and I know I don't deserve it, but I need you. I love you. I haven’t lived a single day without you. Without thoughts of you. You are my love, life, lungs…and we all know I can’t live without those.
I can see myself, 60 years from now in a rocking chair on the front porch of a house I almost recognize, telling my grandchildren about the first day of my life. “I was seven years old when I met the girl who made my life the best it could ever be. When you love someone with all of your heart, it never disappears. Remember that.”
letyourheartguideyou.
itwhisperssolistencarefully.
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